Now this will be long post due the fact a lot happened during my teens. Again I will try to condense as much possible.
Last post we left of with me moving to North Van at 12. At 13 i started high school and it was pretty uneventful. When I was 14 I discovered that I had a cyst in my jaw and went to the Dentist to get it checked out. Turned out it was tumor and they weren't sure if it was cancer or not. So they did a biopsy of it. It took 2 weeks for the result to come back and in those 2 weeks I face my mortality. I explored the fact at 14 I wasn't invincible and that I could die. This was a profound revelation for me. Anyways the test came back begin and I was booked for surgery. I went into surgery being told I was only going to lose 2 teeth. Well in surgery the Dr.s discovered that the tumor was worse than they thought. It was so bad that I ended up losing 6 teeth total and they were debating weather or not then were going to take out my entire jaw due to the sever bone loss in the front of my jaw. So I woke up to discover this, it was a bit of a shock to say the least. I got my partial denture shortly there after and have had it since. At 15 I went on my very 1st date who turned into my boyfriend. He eventually dumped me for someone who would put out. (Ouch!) I dated other boys over the next 3 years, but they all didn't last long. When I was 16 I try to pickle my liver with alcohol and to this day can't stand even thought of Bailey's Irish Cream *shudders*. That was the worse hangover EVER!! Also to this day have an 8+ hr time span that I can NOT remember. Just after my 18th birthday I came to the decision that I *HAD* to lose my virginity because all my friends were having sex and had been for a while. So I was on a mission, didn't really care who but I just wanted to happen asap! I end up meeting this boy in my favorite gaming store. We hit it off and I got the lusties for him. I was shameless in flirting with him and threw myself at him repeatedly. He never responded we just became friends. Any how a week later he took me to dinner where I meet his older brother (C). Now C wasn't like any other boy that I had ever meet, for one he was 21 and he didn't try and crawl into my pants in the 1st 5 min of meeting me. Any ways C and I hit it off and went of a few dates and the was lots of passion on both ends. We ended up having sex, it was lousy and hurt lots. Part of that was he was a virgin too. Any ways I got pregnant 2 weeks after I 1st meet him and like the 3rd time I ever had sex. I was in denial about being pregnant for 2 months, my Mom confronted me about it and made me go to the Dr. And Dr. confirmed what I had feared, I was pregnant. I sat myself down and thought long and hard about what I wanted to do. I came to the decision that I was going to face my responsibility by having the baby. I told C and he didn't believe me, made me give him my Dr.'s number to get it from her that I was. After he got that he wanted me to 'get rid of it', I told him where to shove it. We fought, but made up in the end and stayed together as couple. We stayed together until I was 7 months pregnant and then fought again. He wanted me to give the baby up, I didn't and told him that in no uncertain terms of that. So we parted company, and my sister took over as my labour coach. Then in Feb of '94 I gave birth to my daughter (AY), she was 8 lbs 7 ozs. She was so beautiful and small ... and I was scared to death. I was talked into letting C back into my life. I had to give him a chance to redeem himself, give him a chance of being a father and not cheat AY at having a father just because I had issues with him. So we entered a very cautious agreement and restarted our relationship. So time went on and I celebrated my 19 birthday shortly there after with 2 month old in tow.
Wow that was shorter than thought it would be. Next installment my 20's 20-30. Stay tuned.
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